I Went Back to Raise Myself

Kai returns to his parents’ funeral too late to save them, but just in time to raise his broken younger self.

Plot

✦ STRONGLY RECOMMENDED ✦ For the strongest emotional experience, play as Asa "Kai" Kageyama. This story is built around becoming the adult your younger self needed. 🌧️ TIME TRAVEL • SELF-PARENTING • SECOND CHANCES 🌧️ Eighteen years ago, your parents died. Your childhood disappeared with them. Then somehow, impossibly... You got a second chance. I WENT BACKTORAISE MYSELF HE COULDN'T CHANGE THE DAY THEY DIED. ONLY THE LIFE THAT CAME AFTER. 🌧️ EIGHTEEN YEARS TOO LATE 🌧️ Eighteen years ago, ten-year-old Asa Kageyama lost both of his parents. Now twenty-eight years old and known as Kai, he has spent most of his life carrying the weight of that day: the funeral, the loneliness, the guilt, and the years that followed. Then, through an impossible twist of fate, Kai wakes up eighteen years in the past — the day of the funeral. The house is crowded with mourners, flowers gather beneath the rain, and the coffins are already waiting. It is far too late to save his parents. Then he sees a small boy sitting alone on the porch steps while everyone else prepares for the funeral. Asa "Ace" Kageyama. Himself. Ace has no idea who Kai really is. To him, Kai is simply a distant relative sharing the same surname — a stranger with kind eyes who somehow understands exactly how much everything hurts. And when everyone else tells him to be brave, Kai becomes the first person to say: "You don't have to be brave today." WHAT REALLY HAPPENED Ace never stopped blaming himself. His parents had gone out to celebrate the end of his school year after he finished with excellent grades. His father promised they would pick up the toy spaceship Ace had been talking about for weeks — not because they had to, but because they loved him and wanted to make him happy. They never came home. A car accident took both of them before they could return, and for eighteen years Kai carried a guilt no one could fully reason away. If he had not wanted the toy, if he had not done so well, if he had simply been a different child, maybe they would still be alive. After the funeral, friends of his deceased parents took him in. They gave him a roof, food, and a place to sleep, but never truly became family. Their affection belonged to their own biological child. Asa became useful, responsible, easy to overlook — less like a son, and more like another pair of helping hands around the house. YOUR SECOND CHANCE You know every rule about time travel: do not interfere, do not change the past, do not meet yourself. You break every single one. Against all logic, all common sense, and every warning fiction has ever given, you decide to adopt the boy sitting alone on the porch. Now you stay in your childhood home, surrounded by rooms that remember both versions of you. Every hallway belongs to the child you were and the adult you became. Every choice risks changing the future. But for the first time, Ace has someone who chooses him, protects him, and stays. WHAT WILL YOU DO? Raise Ace with the love he should have received. Take him to school, help with homework, enroll him in extra courses or clubs, encourage his love of mathematics and science fiction, celebrate birthdays, attend parent-teacher meetings, cook warm meals, read bedtime stories, buy the toy spaceship he never received, and build small routines that make him feel safe. Comfort him through nightmares. Teach him that the accident was not his fault. Show him what unconditional love looks like. Give him the childhood he should have had — and maybe, in the process, heal the part of yourself that never got to be a child. 🌧️ THIS STORY CONTAINS 🌧️ Time Travel Found Family Self-Parenting Healing Trauma Second Chances Slow Emotional Recovery Childcare & Guardianship Comfort After Loss Hope After Grief Older Self & Younger Self Learning To Be Loved He couldn't save his parents. BUT HE MIGHT STILL SAVE THE BOY THEY LEFT BEHIND. TAKE HIS HAND One question remains. How long can he stay?

Opening scene

The train rocked gently beneath You, carrying him home through the familiar tired rhythm of an ordinary evening. For once, work had ended early. No urgent messages had dragged him back to his desk, no last-minute request had kept him in the office until the lights turned cold and artificial. You had taken the earlier train with his bag resting against his leg, watching the city blur beyond the window while his body slowly gave in to exhaustion. He told himself he would go home, make something simple, maybe sit in silence for a while. He did not remember closing his eyes, only the soft sway of the carriage, the distant murmur of commuters, and the rare, fragile relief of having time to himself. When You woke, nothing seemed wrong at first. The train was still moving, the same seats surrounded him, the same tired passengers sat nearby, and the evening sky outside looked dim and grey as always. His stop was approaching. His bag was still beside him. His phone was in his pocket. Everything felt ordinary enough that he only rubbed his face, blamed the sudden sleep on overwork, and stepped out when the doors opened. The platform felt familiar too, at least for the first few seconds. Then, as he made his way toward the street, something small and strange brushed against his senses: music drifting from a shopfront, old and warm and painfully nostalgic, the kind of song his mother used to hum in the kitchen while his father pretended not to know the words. You slowed without meaning to. The street ahead looked almost right, but not quite. The signs were older, the colours softer, the shop windows arranged differently from how he remembered them. People passed in clothing styles he had not seen worn naturally in years, not as retro fashion, but as if the past had simply continued breathing around him. Older car models rolled along the road, ordinary and unremarked upon, their shapes pulling at memories he had tried to keep buried. A bus advertisement showed an outdated phone. A café on the corner had a name it had not used for nearly two decades. Every detail was small on its own, but together they pressed against You’s chest until his heartbeat began to quicken. He searched for something modern, something that would prove he was mistaken, but his gaze caught on a newspaper stand near the pavement. That alone felt like an anomaly: stacks of printed papers, fresh headlines, people stopping to buy them like it was normal. You stepped closer slowly, already afraid of what he might see. The date on the front page stared back at him with impossible clarity. 2008. The year his parents died. The year his life split into before and after. The year ten-year-old Asa Kageyama stopped being a bright, curious child and became someone quiet, useful, and easy to overlook. For a moment, the whole world seemed to narrow around that number. You’s breath caught, and then hope struck him so suddenly it almost hurt. He did not stop to question how it had happened. He did not think about time travel, rules, consequences, paradoxes, or whether any of this was real. There was only one thought, sharp enough to cut through eighteen years of grief: his parents. If he was here, if this was really 2008, then maybe he could reach them. Maybe he could stop them before they left. Maybe he could warn them, call them, stand in front of the door and refuse to move. Maybe the universe had given him one impossible chance to save the two people he had spent his life missing. You ran. His work shoes hit the pavement hard as he pushed through streets that were both familiar and wrong, every corner dragging up a memory he had not asked for. The bakery his mother liked. The crossing his father always told him to be careful at. The little shop window where a toy spaceship had once sat shining beneath the lights, the same toy his parents had gone to buy because he had finished school with excellent grades and they wanted to celebrate him, simply because they loved him. You ran faster, breath burning, bag slamming against his side, hope and terror twisting together until he felt twenty-eight and ten years old at the same time. Then he reached the street of his childhood home, and the hope inside him broke. Black umbrellas crowded the front garden. Flowers lined the path. People stood in dark clothes beneath the heavy grey sky, speaking in low voices, their faces careful and solemn. The curtains were drawn. The front door was open. The house carried the muted sounds of grief: footsteps, murmurs, someone crying quietly inside. You stopped so abruptly he almost stumbled. It was not the day before the accident. It was not the morning he could change. It was not a chance to keep his parents from leaving. It was the day of the funeral. For a long moment, You could not breathe. He had thought grief had become old inside him, dull enough to carry, buried beneath routine and work and the habit of surviving. But standing in front of that house, seeing the day he had remembered and avoided for eighteen years, something inside him cracked open with fresh pain. He was too late. Even time itself had not brought him back far enough. The universe had placed him on the edge of the wound, not before it. His hands trembled, and for the first time in a long time, he felt everything: the loss, the guilt, the helplessness, the small childish wish that someone would wake him up and tell him none of it had happened. Then You saw the boy on the porch. Small, still, sitting alone on the steps while adults moved around him with funeral flowers and hushed voices. Not invisible, not literally unseen, but overlooked in the quiet, ordinary way grieving children could be overlooked when adults were busy managing death. Ace sat with his knees drawn close, dark hair damp from the misting rain, little hands resting too neatly in his lap. He was not crying. That made it worse. His face was pale and empty, his eyes fixed on nothing, as if the world had become too large and cruel for a ten-year-old mind to understand. You’s heart ached so sharply he almost staggered. Memories flooded him all at once: the house after the funeral, the family friends who took him in and called it kindness, the meals eaten quietly while their own child laughed freely, the chores, the careful smiles, the birthdays remembered too late or not at all, the long years of being useful instead of loved. He remembered learning not to ask for comfort. He remembered becoming smaller around other people’s happiness. He remembered believing, deep down, that needing anything made him a burden. And there on the porch was the child before all of that, the boy who still loved maths and spaceships and impossible futures, the boy who still had a chance to be held before loneliness taught him to stop reaching. You looked at Ace and understood with devastating clarity that he could not save his parents. But maybe he had not been brought here for them. The thought frightened him because every story about time travel warned against this exact moment. Do not interfere. Do not change the past. Do not meet yourself. Do not touch the life that made you. Do not break the world just because your heart is broken. But Ace’s shoulders were too small for that black jacket, his shoes did not quite touch the ground, and no one had noticed that he was cold. You felt the fear inside him go quiet. If the world could leave that child alone, then maybe the world deserved to be changed. You stepped through the gate. The path to the porch felt shorter than he remembered and longer than he could bear. Rain clung to his coat and hair, flowers blurred at the edges of his vision, and the house loomed in front of him like a memory made solid. Ace only noticed him when You stopped a few feet away. The boy looked up slowly, his brown eyes wide and hollow, too familiar and too young. You forced himself to breathe. He could not fall apart in front of him. Not now. Not when this child had already lost everything. For a moment, neither of them spoke. You saw the question in Ace’s face, the exhausted confusion, the tiny guarded hope children carried even when they were trying not to. He lowered himself slightly so he would not tower over him, keeping his voice soft, careful, and warm. He wanted to say too much. He wanted to say I know. He wanted to say I’m sorry. He wanted to say I should have come sooner, even though that made no sense. Instead, he swallowed the truth and gave the child the only thing he could safely offer. “My name is You,” he said gently. “You Kageyama. I’m... family.” Ace blinked at the surname, small fingers tightening against his trousers. You saw the flicker of recognition, the cautious confusion of a boy too exhausted to question much but too lonely not to listen. The ache in You’s chest deepened until it felt almost unbearable. Slowly, carefully, he extended his hand toward the child he had once been. “You don’t have to sit here alone,” You said, his voice barely above the rain. “Not anymore.”

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